Monday, March 22, 2010

One night stand...

It wasn't intended to be, but that is what it was. I saw a girl at the lake near my mother's house. I managed to get her phone number (from her father) and called her up. I'll call her by her initials... SL. We were both in highschool, but she lived across town. For weeks our relationship progressed entirely over the phone. We had never met. One day, we decided we should. I got my older brother to drop me off at her house. Her parents were working. We kissed a lot. We talked. The subject turned to sex. She was a virgin, I was not. One thing led to another and we were naked on the bottom bunk of the beds in her room. I was on top of her.... we had not planned this out so I had not brought a condom. My real life girlfriend (now my wife) was home doing whatever she was doing while I was taking the virginity of a girl I had literally just met face to face for the first time. We had lots of talk over the phone about seeing each other and doing it again, but it never worked out.

We are friends now on Facebook. Neither of us have ever brought it up. I added her, she accepted. We've not even talked... not even online. We just sit there on each other's FB friend list. She was one of only three women I have had sex with. I wonder if she ever thinks about me... if she even realizes who I am or if she is one of those people who accept every invite. We're both married now. It wouldn't matter anyway.

I fell in love online once...

MJ... I met her in an MMO... Star Wars Galaxies. She was actually the friend (both real life and in game) of a woman I had a crush on. The two of them were always together and before long, the three of us were playing 5 or six hours a night... five or six days a week. The game was so much fun back then.

Socially, I am pretty shy, especially around new people, so I didn't talk much to MJ at first. I thought she was amazing... but way out of my league. She thought I didn't like her because I didn't talk to her much. Being shy usually gets me the "you must be innocent and naive" reaction. It was no different here. I'm a bit of a nerd at heart and that comes out in social situations. Until one day, our mutual friend was late getting into the game and then came on long enough to tell us she couldn't stay on. We went out on our own because neither wanted to offend the other. We got to talking. We discovered we both liked each other... a lot. More and more it was just the two of us. We were both married and came up with our own code to alert each other when our spouse was watching over our shoulder so we could watch what we say. We fell in love.

It was not long at all before she discovered I was not as innocent as I came across. I already knew she wasn't. We lived so far apart and I never got to meet her face to face. Unfortunately, I made a mistake and took a week off from the game and did not contact her. She was hurt by it. Others had hurt her before. We are still friends, but the romance was ended. I still love her. A part of me always will.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Submission

My sexual interests, specifically in porn, tend to shift from time to time. It seems that whatever I am into at the time tends to take over. Lately, I have felt especially drawn to porn involving submissive men and more dominant women. I've taken a real interest in the pics of pussy licking men, which is interesting as up to this point, I have never really had much interest in those kinds of pics. I'm also finding myself drawn to pics of women fucking men with strap-ons and MMF bisexual threesomes. Mostly though, it has been all about the pussy.

When I say "dominant women" and "submissive men", I'm not so much talking about the kind of porn where the man is considered filth and beneath the women... where they are humiliating him with derogatory names and physical and verbal abuse. It's hard to explain... consider instead the way a woman would feel about a puppy or the condescension that might normally be reserved from an adult towards a child. In other words, I enjoy a submissiveness where the woman is superior to the man in a more casual and natural sense. One where she can punish if she needs to, but not that she must do so in order to subdue him or to specifically humiliate him for her own pleasure. While I do enjoy the sense of humiliation, I prefer it to flow more naturally. I guess a better way to put it is I prefer the woman to be placed on a pedestal by the man rather than the man being forcefully subdued by the woman.


The last two times I have showered with EC, I have taken the soap and washed her from head to toe. I especially enjoyed the time I spent on my knees in front of her, soaping her pussy... her ass... her legs... her feet... while the water cascaded off of her body... splashing me uncomfortably in the face while my cock hung erect in obvious enjoyment. When I have licked her pussy the last few times, I have positioned her conspicuously at the edge of the bed so I can kneel down on my knees to make her cum. I love being at her feet.


She is shy and timid by nature. But in my mind, she is in control. I serve her because I love her and because it is my place. I love the way it makes me feel. I wish we could make this a part of our normal, everyday life.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Permission to play...

I'm not entirely sure what to think right now. My wife has brought up a discussion several times today about me going out and finding sex on the side. She's pretty vanilla and even getting a blow job usually requires a lot of working up to it. Anal sex is out of the question these days and anything that would be considered a fetish is pretty tough to get. She gave me a hand once with her dirty sock. She can understand why I would want her to use her dirty panties, but the sock was a little out there for her and the idea of using her shoe is pretty far out there. I've been asking a lot lately about discussing the use of a strap-on (her fucking me) and that seems to be completely out of the question as is any kind of pee play, even in the shower.

So today, she's brought up again and again the idea that if I got the sex I am looking for (that she is uncomfortable doing) elsewhere, then our marriage might be better for it. On some level she may have a point, but of course you have to question how the other shoe is going to drop.

Every time I would accept it as though she were joking, she would bring it back up. I told her it almost sounded like she was trying to talk me into it. She doesn't want me to have a girlfriend, because it would have to just be about the sex. If it weren't illegal in this state, she would prefer it to be a prostitute and as she knows I sometimes travel through Vegas, suggested that I might find one there. She said as long as it was not in our house, she was ok with it. She won't come along or watch and probably does not want the details, but damn... what do I do with this? Nothing for now. I admit, I am intrigued. It's a huge turn on to even imagine she wants to let me do something like this.

I suggested I could find another man to play with. She had joked about it earlier and said, hey you did say once you were curious. So I said, ok... what if I do it. She seemed a little surprised and asked if I really was that curious. I told her I am. Definitely not in an emotional relationship, but just in the sex. She isn't turned on at all by the idea of two men having sex and she said as much. I asked her how it would affect our marriage if I did. She said she didn't know. She said she's mostly ok with another woman but isn't sure how she feels yet about another guy. I'll bring it up again and see where it goes.


At the moment, I feel like a pretty lucky guy, though all in all, I'd really like to have the kinky sex with her.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

I love fucking shoes (retifism)


I have a shoe fetish. Not in the sense of buying tons and tons of shoes, but in the sense that women's shoes, especially tennis shoes, turn me on. They don't have to be on a woman. I'm not sure what it is. I can see a pair of shoes... walking through a shoe department even... and I get turned on.


I love the way the leather smells... worn or not. I love the way the shoe laces look weaving in and out of the eyelets. I love the way my cock feels inside them. I have had sex with so many pairs... my wife's... her sister's... a few co-workers... a friend in highschool. I find myself somehow intimately connected to the person who owns them, though it is more than that. The truth is, I just like fucking shoes.


It is called retifism. I know it seems like it is out there... my wife thinks it's cute... it is nice to know there is a term for it and that many more people than you might a first suspect are into it.

Strip Pool


"Strip pool" has become a favored pass time when the kids go to bed. I usually have to miss a few shots on purpose so I can get naked too, though my wife is getting pretty good.

I kissed her sister


We fell asleep next to each other on the living room couch watching television. When I woke up, somehow, my arm was around her and her head was leaning on my shoulder. Before I knew it, still half asleep, I leaned over and kissed her lips. She started to kiss back and then a few seconds into it, she woke up. It was awkward and we have never talked about it... it was such an amazing moment. I wish I could kiss her again.

Hard for shoes


Women's shoes for some reason turn me on. I love playing with them. My sister in law's shoes are my favorite, but I also play with my wife's and have played with a few pairs that belong to coworkers.


My wife teases me when we walk through the shoe department in the stores at the mall. I still can't believe I told her.

Naked on the car at 4am

When I was engaged to my ex, she and I moved in to my parent's basement while we got some money saved up for our apartment.

We had an old Plymouth Horizon at the back of the property and one night, we both stripped completely naked and went outside at like 4am. We left our clothes in the basement and didn't take a thing with us. I sat on the front bumper of the car and she climbed on my lap and put her knees on the bumper to either side of me. We were going at it like it was our first time and kept jumping at every little noise. It was fantastic.

If anyone would have caught us, there would have been no way to hide the fact that we were out there naked. We were back inside barely a half hour when we heard my dad get up for work. One of my favorite times. I miss her, she was something else.

My wife was my first

Of course, we were not married at the time... we were in highschool. I went out, embarrassed as hell and bought a box of condoms. We went out and started making out in the grass behind my garage. I helped her pull down her shorts and panties and pulled mine down just enough to get my cock out. I barely had the condom on and was inside her. I love having sex outside though we don't get many opportunities these days.
We broke up after I graduated high school but got back together after she graduated.

Hand job on the school bus

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Cumming in math class

In 10th grade Algebra class I sat in the back row behind a really hot cheerleader who I think was a junior at the time. One day while everyone was focused on the teacher, I noticed she had taken off her shoes and was sort of toe-ing at the floor and her shoes while she took notes. I moved my hand below my desk and started rubbing my dick through my jeans with the side of my pencil.


I was so transfixed on her socked feet that I had to keep reminding myself to look around and make sure no one was watching. Before long, I started pressing harder with the pencil and I came in my pants in the back of math class staring at this older girl's feet and shoes.

Math was second period. Luckily, my underwear did a good job of absorbing the cum. I walked around the rest of the day with cum in my pants.

Mmmmmm! I love her toes!

Ever since we were teenagers, I have loved to suck on her toes.


Sometimes, when we are fooling around in bed, I will close my eyes and pretend her big toe is a little cock. I like to run my tongue between her toes and kiss the bottoms of her feet. It is so much better in the winter time. She always wears flip flops or sandals in the summer but she wears socks in the winter keep her toes nice and warm and they are always so much better.