My new paddles

We were at Michaels the other day and I found these wooden decor items that can be used as paddles. The largest is an oar... very solid and a good inch thick. When my wife spanked me with it, I knew I had to have it. It felt great and gave a pretty loud smack that I'm sure could be heard across the store.

The middle sized paddle is a small, thin cutting board... broad, light, and about half as thick as the oar. She spanked me with it while I fucked her. It had a much different feel to it because of how dispersed the smack was across both cheeks. It felt very flirty compared to the oar.

The smallest is a spatula... very thin and very light, but it stings! She has spanked me with this one twice during sex and the small head of the spatula stings. I was thinking the big one would hurt the most, but the fact that the smack is so isolated and she can wield it a little easier lets her hit me hard and quick. I loved it. I told her I want to work up to the point where she can bring tears to my eyes. I want her to hurt me. She doesn't understand it and honestly neither do I. It just feels so damn good!

I need to either paint or stain them. I'm not sure if I am going to do a solid color or try to do some design. I told her I want us to come up with names for them and put them on the handle. I'm still trying to think through so choices.

Road Trip and a Panty Shopping Spree

I spent most of the day driving to a hotel several hours away for work. Of course, I was wearing a pair of panties for the drive... the pink satin ones my wife bought me. I managed to wear the butt plug for a little over an hour from the start of the trip. I could have worn it much longer, but I didn't want to get too used to it. I like the way it feels and was looking forward to playing with it in the hotel room. I brought one of my fleshlights as well... the mouth.

I got to the hotel and checked in, then went out to dinner with a co-worker, wearing my panties beneath my work clothes. Afterward, I went back to the hotel and changed into some shorts and a t-shirt and headed over to Wal-mart to buy a couple of extra pair of panties. I ended up going on a bit of a shopping spree and bought quite a bit... $43 worth to be exact.

I bought 14 pairs of panties... a 10 pack of Hanes Cotton Bikinis in various patterns, size 9. Size 9 fits me much more comfortably than size 8, apparently this is my size, though the size 8's are doable.

I got a two pack of Smart & Sexy aqua blue nylon bikinis, size 8... I love the see through mesh and one pair is covered in purple and pink flowers, the other pair has a light green pattern running through it. Both have ruffles along the outside.

I bought another pair of George Ladies lace bikinis, size 8, just like the coral ones my wife bought me, but these are pinkish purple.

And I got a pair of George Ladies nylon lace thong, with a matching cammy (both are XL, pink carnation). I am wearing these now along with a pair of pink Faded Glory socks. They are for shoe size 8-12, the biggest I could find, but really tight on me. I will have to look for a larger size. And I am also wearing a pink and yellow braided ankle bracelet.

I got a box of condoms to make the Fleshlight play a little easier on the clean up. I also got a small bottle of bodycology cherry blossom body mist.

I was so nervous walking around the women's department browsing through the different panties and looking for what I wanted. The layout of the store was completely different so I had a hard time finding what I was looking for and there were women all over the place, probably close to a dozen, a couple older than me, but most my age or in their twenties. I got some glances at first but I think they just thought maybe I was picking out something for my wife, but when my basket started to get pretty full, the glances lingered a little longer and I think it was obvious they were for me.

I went through the self check out because I am a big pussy. A young couple came up behind me in line right as I picked up the first pair of panties. I was sooooo embarassed. I hurriedly tried to ring them up and get them in the bag hoping she wasn't paying attention but when I looked over out of the corner of my eye, I could see she was watching me. I kept telling myself that these people don't know me and I will never see them again. It wasn't helping. Just about that time, I was trying to pay with my card and the machine stated an override was needed and the cashier (another young woman) came over and asked to see my ID and card. I was petrified. The panties were all in the bag, open right in front of her, while she glanced at all of the items on the checkout screen and right on top of the bag, was a box of condoms. She smiled at me and tried to make some small talk about being far from home while she typed in her override. My heart was racing by the time I left.

I'm talking to my wife on the phone about it all. She asked me if I brought the coral panties with me. I told her I did and that I bought a few new pairs as well. She said it is a little weird for me to wear them when she is not with me and thinks it is a little odd for me to want to wear them all of the time... just as a fun every once in the while thing would be ok, but this is a little much for her right now all at once. I guess I will need to slow things down. Of course, I have no intention of telling her about the cammy, body mist, bracelet, socks, or the number of panties I just bought. She doesn't want me to wear them every day but I just don't want to give them up. I sooooo hope she doesn't make me. I am having so much fun and finally was starting to feel like I could be me.

Panties, Shopping, and New Toys

So today, my wife put me in an old pair of her panties. White cotton Hanes Her Way, size 6. They were starting to tear and were old. She was going to throw them out, but said I could have them.

I put them on while she watched and we both agreed they were very snug, but they fit well enough. I cleaned up the house with her while wearing them and eventually she sent me out to the grocery store to get a few things for dinner. She wanted me to cook out on the new grill.

I stopped at Tasty's while I was out and spent $150 on a butt plug, cock ring, and crotchless panties for me, and a We Vibe II for her.

I figured since she has been indulging me so much with the panties that I should get her something she has been wanting to try. The woman at the store talked me through how to best use the cock ring and told me a little about the We Vibe. She said it was a very good choice. I wish I would have had the guts to tell her the butt plug was for me and that I was standing there in my wife's panties with my cock trying to break free through the fabric. Honestly, my heart was racing. I was so nervous being in there talking about sex toys with her, even if she was doing most of the talking.

By the time I got through the grocery store and got home, the panties were really starting to tear. I mentioned to my wife as she stood there next to me on the patio that nothing was more manly than grilling out with your wife's panties on. She chuckled and smiled at me. I told her about the panties tearing and my cock was poking through. By the time we got done eating, my balls had managed to find their way out of a second hole. While I was dong dishes, she was standing next to me... I unzipped my shorts and pulled them down so she could see. My cock was protruding, at full erection, on of one hole in her panties and my balls were hanging down out of another. I honestly am not sure how many times I have heard her laugh so hard. It was great! I was laughing too. I asked her if she would go with me to Wal-mart tonight to buy some more that were my size. She said it would have to wait, but told me she had washed the two pairs she bought for me so they would have to do.

I will be driving for eight hours across several states tomorrow and I plan to wear them on the drive. I can't wait. I'm going to see if I can keep the butt plug in that long as well. When I get home, I will tell her about the We Vibe, cock ring, and crotchless panties. I am going to have to work up to tell her about the butt plug. I really want to have sex with her while wearing it, but I don't want to push too much on her at once.

I told her last night and this morning that I wanted her to think about being the one in charge around here. I am going to try and find some good information on the web about female led relationships that she can read. She's not ready to read about full cross dressing and sissies and forced feminization so I will have to be selective. She seems to be warming to at least thinking about it.

She mentioned today that she did think it would be a little weird if I wanted to wear the panties all the time (which I had brought up). I asked her if she would think about letting me and told her that part of me wants her to accept that I want this and part of me wants her to think it is weird because all of this has been so humiliating and that is a big part of the turn on for me. I can't believe I told my wife that I want to feel humiliated. I mentioned that she is always saying I am too aggressive and too hot tempered, so maybe letting her be in charge and getting in touch with my feminine side would help with that. She raised an eyebrow at me and I think maybe that was a little too much for her to process.

I want to go full force with all of this sooooooo badly, but I need to pace it. I know I need to find a good balance of slowing down, but not letting it drop completely. Slow and steady wins the race.

My 2009 Orgasm Statistics

I've been keeping track of my orgasms since I got my iPod last year. Yep... there's an app for that.

In 2009:
I jacked myself off 244 times (average 4.7 times per week).
I had sex with my wife 28 times (average once every other week).
My wife gave me 20 hand jobs (average about once every 2 1/2 weeks).
She gave me four blow jobs to completion (average once every 3 months).
I got off using my Fleshlights (alone or with EC) 15 times (average about once ever 3 1/2 weeks).

In total, I had 311 orgasms last year, about six a week.

I took it all the way!

I've played briefly with toys in my ass before... a small butt plug... a thin flexible vibe... once I tried my wife's full size dildo... about the same size as my own cock. I admit it hurt like a bitch and I stopped after just a couple of seconds I decided I wanted to know how it felt. If my wife can take my cock in her ass, why can't I handle it? So last night in my hotel room, I'm looking at porn and I happened to bring along a couple of my wife's dildos and my pussy flesh light.

I got out the smaller of the two dildos. A very thin, vibrating, blue waterproof toy shaped like a penis ribbed with some pretty harsh ridges. I managed to get it inside me a good few inches. I turned on my camera and the vibe and fucked myself with the fleshlight. It felt pretty good.

Tonight though... I took her big one. It's by far larger than me... both in length and girth. A vibrating, cyberskin realistic cock. It took me a while but I got it inside me a few inches. I had some trouble getting it in very far. I turned on the vibe and tried to relax and watch some porn. A good 45 minutes later, with is still in my ass, I pulled it out and relubed. I slid it back inside me and sat on it. Wow!! All the way in. It didn't hurt like I thought it would. I toyed with sliding it in and out and had on some good female on male strap-on porn. I came pretty hard but I have to say that the best part is how I felt afterward. I felt more satisfied than I can ever remember after jacking off. I really wonder how the real thing feels. Even now, over an hour later, I feel fulfilled. I'm so proud of myself for taking it. I can't wait to do it again.

The Joydick

This is exactly what needs to be put out on the market. I would have sooo much fun with a game like this. Just imagine how much fun it would be to beat your high score. What better way to condition yourself to last longer? :)

There are instructions on how to make your own on the site: http://projects.sfmedialabs.com/?page_id=77 but this is way over my head... no pun intended.

Fleshlight

Last night, EC asked me to get out the new fleshlights I bought. We started with the pink Pussy Fleshlight with the Vortex texture. (I also got a pink Mouth with the Speed Bump texture and an ice (clear) Butt with the Wonder Wave texture.

I got naked and she layed next to me fully clothed. All I can say is wow... it felt more like her pussy than anything else I have played with. She had a lot of fun with it too. Can't wait to take some pictures and videos and upload them. We're about to play again tonight. She wants to watch my cock inside the ice Butt. ;)

Cumming on Cam

I brought my webcam with me on the trip this time along with an anal vibe. The vibrator is "jointed" and the ability to bend it allows the angle to be just right for hitting the prostate right where I need to.
I got on yahoo messenger with a guy from Newbie Nudes and we jacked off together. He did a really good job of chatting me up and helping me to get off. Between the vibrations in my ass... which were at full speed by the time I came... and the hot chatting about group sex involving our wives, it was a really good time.

I came pretty hard and watching him jack off while he watched me doing it was really hot! I have to admit that it was also hot.... and a little humiliating... when he asked me to turn around and show him the purple vibrator I had stuck up my ass. He told me to pretend it was his cock... well, I was already doing that!

I can't wait to cam again!

HoMedics Massager

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